xmas 2012/ivan birthday

My dear Ivan...you're 4 now...a lot had change. We only had small cake for you...and you enjoy it very much...and for xmas, that what you get...and momy had to be santa again....loving it.
We love you so much IVAN...xoxo mum, dad n Isaac... 

She officially RC!

Kelly your god-mother is Mrs. Tina Justin....today is your specially day as its the beginning of your new life under Roman Catholic. You are only 3 month ++ today so you're a bit cranky all the time.

Kelly's Fullmoon



me & my "mini" me



We celebrate Kelly full moon with family and friends.  

May God bless you dear angel

especially on this day, that marks your birth,

for all the special ways you bring

a bit of heaven into our world

May God bless you, Today, Tomorrow and Always in Peace in Health in Happiness and in Love

XOXO..Mom, dad, Isaac & Ivan

third time the charm

she's just few hours old

1st meeting with her nenek & brothers

kelly's 1st bath at atuk house



almost 1 day old



..at tbn home, you just 3 days old..

2 weeks

1 month old

my heart & soul



heart-breaker



Finally, a baby girl join the family and of course mumy super happy coz finally I've a 'friend' at home. After deliver at Hospital Keningau, we stayed at Atuk home for 2 days then return home to Tambunan as we'll be more comfortable coz the weather here is less hot than keningau...luckily, kelly jaundice was OK..no need to mandi stout, maybe because she had been feed with 5 oz of milk right after birth because her sugar level was so low...and thank god for that...no need to go KKIA everyday...frankly, kelly has her own drama... 



My Journey with Kelly

25 September 2012

 

Today is the last day I'll be visiting Klinik Kesihatan Ibu & Anak (KKIA)...coz tomorow is my due date and if there's no sign until tomorow, I've to pack and had to do the delivering at Hospital Keningau....it also because my baby (kelly) is another big baby...above 4kg...i've tried diet and cut all the sugar but still, for last two months...i was totally craving "mee hoon goreng" from a specific restaurant here in tambunan...so i eat like twice a week or three maybe...just can't stop it...and the Dr. Evelyn didn't want to take any risk and she did mention about my baby heart condition (i didn't hear the explanation) and as soon as she mention the word 'heart'....my heart stop a bit and i was like "ya tuhan...please save my baby"....we've been waiting for 9 months and suddenly she (Dr.Evelyn) mention something like that...it's killing me right away....maybe i didn't pray hard enough and all sort of things came into my mind...but one thing for sure, i'm not prepared if something happen and i felt so scared...so either Keningau or Kota Kinabalu....but of course i want Keningau...it's near and we have a house there too...near to my family...so i went home, tell my mom and dad then to hubby....i can see they worried and scared too...but we leave it to "HIS" will...and hope for the best.....by night, i was packing my cloths and kelly too....isaac & ivan seem to be confused...then i explain to them that kelly want to come out soon and I've to go to Hospital Keningau for few days...later they can come to visit me after baby kelly is delivered...

26 September 2012

The night seem very short and I didn't get any sleep too...I woke up before five in the morning and quietly snuggle into hubby arms...I never so nervous and scared like this before...even with Isaac or Ivan...and slowly, my tears roll down my cheek...I’m sobbing...and speechless...hubby clam me down and everything will be OK...around 6am, dad n mum come to fetch me...and within 40 minutes, there we are in front of the Hospital counter for registration...and after all the formality checking in with pink uniform...still no sign of delivering...so, waiting for another doctor for consultation again...there's contraction but not that strong for deliver...so the waiting game is on. Nothing much happening here coz it was not my familiar surrounding so all I do while waiting is sleeping, eating and counting the gap of my pain....and thanks to Debbie for driving my mom form here and there...I was diabetes during pregnancy so cannot consume sugar but still I manage to sneak in box of Osaka cake to comfort me while waiting to deliver…J Around 3pm, the doctor check me again..3cm yeah!! And thank god...some progression so no needs to induce and I felt happy of course...so wait and wait till the opening is 4cm so that i can be sent to the Dewan Bersalin...miss my hubby n isaac n ivan so much...if I were at Tambunan, surely they can visit me anytime...so continue to wait for the miracle 10cm...

27 September 2012

Wake up in the morning and yet still no sign to deliver...but good news is, they’re coming to visit me (hubby, Ivan & Isaac)…later that noon, seeing their faces really cheer me up…Isaac n Ivan thought, Kelly was already born..but still have to wait for dunno how long…around 2pm, doctor do another checking…finally it’s open for 4cm and I’m packing to go to labor room…the funny thing about Hospital Keningau is when you go to the delivery room, you bring everything you have…coz after delivery you’ll be in different bed…the opposite of Hospital Tambunan (you’ll stay in one same bed before and after)….around 4pm…I was settle in an individual labor room with two nurses taking care of you…they were six labors room I guess…so my water was broke around 4.30 pm…and from that moments on…here’s come the labor pain but not that consistent until 9pm…the pain was wooohoooo….and Kelly is ready to came out…after the push and push for half hour…welcome to the world Kelly Fabian @ 9.35pm…she weight 4.18kg..almost breaking his brother Isaac record by 200g….and the Osaka icing is warping all over her body...hahahah…MMS her pic to hubby and elsie...and later that mid night, hubby came with food coz i'm super hungry...

 

Kelly Fabian

When you were born you filled our heart with pride,

And we was overcome by the joy we felt inside.

As we held you in our arms that very first day,
we knew we would never let any harm come your way.

With your tiny little hands and tiny little feet,

Everytime we look at you our heart skips a beat.

As we watch you sleep in the middle of the night,

we hope and pray we will do everything right.

we know ,we may make some mistakes along the way,

but we promise to do our best not to every single day.

we often wonder what you will grow up to be,

But whatever you become will be fine with me.

So whatever you may decide to do in your life,

Maybe a teacher (like your mom), a lawyer, or even a doctor's wife.

we can say this without any doubt at all,

we will always be there to catch you if you fall.

And another promise we make to you from us,

Daddy & Mommy's little angel you will always be.

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Kelly Fabian

27.09.2012

Keningau Hospital

4.18kg

Happy 5 years old!

Happy Birthday Isaac....you're five now and become more like big brother now...since your birthday is during week days so you can celebrate it together with your atuk...but we have family dinner by the weekends...and next year, we'll be celebrating again with familt dinner then the cake...

so..by now, you had show some of your true colour but not all i guess coz you'll be facing more fantastic enviroment when you go to the primary...and perhaps girlfrend, maybe....and hopefully, the girlfrend will wait a bit longer...and of course, i'll be keep telling you stuff about girl later...for now, just enjoy you day by day to fullnest as we do....we love you so much isaac and we wish you all the best of health and luck on your birthday today and many more in future...

Isaac you are five now
What more can I say,

You're becoming more special

Each and every day,

So blow out your candles

One by one

Enjoy your birthday

Have lots of fun.

it's broke our heart

This is the moment which really broke our heart....Isaac had been suffer from some kind of skin decease...the effection started few days before Chinese new year....and we try modern and traditional medicine and with lots of prayer too...and today he's getting better...

during the traditional treatment, i went to meet this old lady which is familiar with traditional treatment and has the ability to see the other 'world'....bukan bomoh but she just gifted...orang2 tua dulu selalu pesan supaya minta izin dahulu sebelum buat apa2 d tempat yang baru...bukan tahyul cuma, ada 'orang lain' yang tidak kelihatan dengan mata kasar....and i strongly believe in this superstition. As for Isaac, its started when his father start burning and cleaning our old 'sulap'....ada 'terbakar' rumah 'orang lain'....so yang kena anak lah coz Isaac was helping him a lot...as we know a child is so fragile (semangat tidak kuat)...and with the old lady help, the 'fire' had been put out but the damage already done....the second traditional treatment is we when to see a chinese medical person (Sin Sang) just next to klinik maria....and according to him, isaac has been "keteguran" since last week....and after doing his thing, isaac was fully recover from fever and gain his appetite back....drink few packet of herb and his recovering fast....and now, we need time to cure his wound....as for today, he's able to run and eat as usual but the feeling of being sick is still there...

As for modern treatment....all they gave is antibiotic and some cream....too much antibiotic is not good for a small kids...so we discontinue with the treatment....

We not sure which treatment was the one that cure our child skin decease....but 80% of it from traditional treatment or maybe the combination.....above all, we thank god for everything...





right fingers



right foot

p/s: when we were cleaning isaac wound by soaking it's with salt (zara) and dettlo...he keep screaming and cyring... "makkk....painful....makkk...painful....you don't sayang me...i'm not happy..." repeatedly....it's like a punch on my face....it's a heart broken situation for us...but we do what we need to do just to make sure you'll be able to run, laugh, play and be happy again....we love you isaac...we would rather take the pain instead of you....we need you to be strong just for few more days....

p/s: pesanan orang tua-tua - even if its not your cup of tea...never took it for granted.

Ivan 2 Years

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVAN!!

Today is your day 31/12/11 and it's also new year's eve....no big party for you, just family gathering. As for today, you still not talking but understand every single word we say to you....and good news is, you stop wearing diaper a week ago...which really makes us happy....big boy now :) so we would like to wish you a very happy birthday and may you be granted with good health all throughout the years and many more...and we love you so much...you little rascal :)